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we started communicating more..I tell him what he does that sends alarms off to me…and so…he say..ok…promise..I will make time for you..and you will tell me what u loike and dont like..I said ok..now after thursday…shocker..I saw him on friday night…now the issue here..i feel like he is parading me…u kno..guys who hav a pretty girl dat gets a tonne load of attn…so they take em out to boost their ego..and the last time i asked him to go out…2 weeks ago..I may as well be still dressed and waiting..but last night his friend who thinks I am a goddess says…lets go out..to a club /bar…he takes me..and is all over me..lots of guys are looking at me..and he just cant seem to take his hands off me..and even kissed me…I am beginning to feel more and more a show..but still speaks in terms of working towards something meaningful..I mean honestly I dont hold it against him..that he still has his playa ways..you can undo 39 years of it in 2 mths…but I feel really hurt..
I am not accustomed to having to beg or fight for a guys attention..I am accustomed ot guys wanting all my time…he seems inconsiderate…but its in the small things he does..which is terrible cause those small things matter most to me…last night I dint ralise until today..thats I was just probably no mor than a show..cause again..we back to our old routine…you disappear for the whole weekend…and ent even bother to ask…well what u wanna do..oh and back to the wanting to go to the club thing which he blew me off for…his friend..who has taken a liking to me..she bought club tickets for all four of us…he NEVER mentioned anything to me..we took a looong drive to the beach dat day and never mentioned anything…and he knows its the same club I have been askig him to go to..but now..his friend who thinks I am soo hto asks..and where do we find ourselves…what am I to do..do I keep talking..keep pullin him up..or do I jus say…u r jus unable to handle all of this..wa to do?